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A Fine Line - Between Chaos and Creation

Everybody seems to think I'm lazy; I don't mind, I think they're crazy...

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Day Three Hundred-Eight (Aka: NaBloPoMo 2013 - Day Four)
I Am Clever

AKA: A heartbreaking decision.

I haven't talked about this yet, because I know that putting it out there just makes it all the more real, and I haven't wanted to admit it.

But now that I've been given an ultimatum, here it is: I won't be going to Quadra next year.

Unfortunately, circumstances have shown me that employers won't be understanding of my leaving for 7 consecutive weeks, and that's not something that I can afford to have happen again.  Especially when I just happened to luck out this time and find another job almost right away.  Who's to say I'd be so lucky next time?

So with that in mind, I won't be putting in an application.  It breaks my heart, but I have a good job now, and I can't risk it.  Not when I'm finally getting almost full-time hours, and it's a nice place to work.

Who knows when I'll be able to go back.  I envy all of those people whose work allows them to go.

I never knew how true the expression "heavy-hearted" could be until now.  It literally feels like a dead weight in my chest. :(

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